Damn. I am bothered by it. I actually remember the keypoints to my exam question though I was a bit taken aback initially. Yet I only remembered 2 out of 4 of them! To make things worst, I changed my answers for one of the MCQs!!! Now that I am revising for another module and happened to come across the same concept, I realise I shouldn't have changed my answer yeah? Trust your intuition. Soooo Damnnn Pissseeed!!!
Guess I should quit my profession as a perfectionist. Allow myself to make mistakes. :))
Sunday, 30 November 2008
Saturday, 29 November 2008
Hap Hap Birthday!
Happy Birthday, Brother!
Yeah, it's my brother's birthday today and I happened to have an exam this morning! Nonetheless, we still manage to have a rather decent tim sum lunch! Lol! For the past three years, my brother's birthday fell on an exam date of mine. I ain't sure if I should count that as a blessing or a misfortune! Lol. We never really have a grandeur celebration in the past 3 years but perhaps, it's also because we no longer believe in birthday celebrations? The first year when I was in NUS, my brother had passed his driving test in the same year and he rented a car to get to this particular eatery @ Sembawang Shopping centre. Prior to that, I had a political science exam @ 5pm and I even went to the extent of getting to ICA to collect his passport with him. While waiting for him in the car since we couldn't get a carpark lot and I had to be a stand-by driver, I frantically fllipped my notes and tried to revise for my exam.
The second year when I was in NUS, I was due to leave for Stockholm in another month's time. Like the previous year, I had exams too! Lol.. We had a celebration on a small scale as well. Today, it's the 3rd year running! Indeed, time flies! True enough, I spent minimal time with my brother this year since I was away for the first half of the year. If you have a sibling, and you have a strong bond with him or her, nothing beats seeing him or her basking in happiness.
You grew up from the same background,
share the same little greenhouse,
walk to school in identical foot-steps,
fight over the same toys and delicacies,
quarrel out of nothing,
tolerate each other's temperament and nuisance,
watch each other transform from a immature young ass into a matured grown-up.
I remember we used to be very excited about our birthdays since they are merely 2 weeks apart. On hindsight, I didn't really get to enjoy birthdays when I was young. Somehow, God gave sickness to me as a birthday present. :( Perhaps that explains why when I got grow older, I respect my birthday, and needless to say, the birthday of everyone else whom I deem important. :)) Having seen lots of people around me who eventually drift apart from their siblings as they grow older, I must pronounce that my brother and I never ever will! Both of us do not know what the future holds for and where we will be yet we know, we will always be there for each other, in support emotionally, psychologically and physically!
Happy Birthday, my Dearest Brother! See the below for you!
Yeah, it's my brother's birthday today and I happened to have an exam this morning! Nonetheless, we still manage to have a rather decent tim sum lunch! Lol! For the past three years, my brother's birthday fell on an exam date of mine. I ain't sure if I should count that as a blessing or a misfortune! Lol. We never really have a grandeur celebration in the past 3 years but perhaps, it's also because we no longer believe in birthday celebrations? The first year when I was in NUS, my brother had passed his driving test in the same year and he rented a car to get to this particular eatery @ Sembawang Shopping centre. Prior to that, I had a political science exam @ 5pm and I even went to the extent of getting to ICA to collect his passport with him. While waiting for him in the car since we couldn't get a carpark lot and I had to be a stand-by driver, I frantically fllipped my notes and tried to revise for my exam.
The second year when I was in NUS, I was due to leave for Stockholm in another month's time. Like the previous year, I had exams too! Lol.. We had a celebration on a small scale as well. Today, it's the 3rd year running! Indeed, time flies! True enough, I spent minimal time with my brother this year since I was away for the first half of the year. If you have a sibling, and you have a strong bond with him or her, nothing beats seeing him or her basking in happiness.
You grew up from the same background,
share the same little greenhouse,
walk to school in identical foot-steps,
fight over the same toys and delicacies,
quarrel out of nothing,
tolerate each other's temperament and nuisance,
watch each other transform from a immature young ass into a matured grown-up.
I remember we used to be very excited about our birthdays since they are merely 2 weeks apart. On hindsight, I didn't really get to enjoy birthdays when I was young. Somehow, God gave sickness to me as a birthday present. :( Perhaps that explains why when I got grow older, I respect my birthday, and needless to say, the birthday of everyone else whom I deem important. :)) Having seen lots of people around me who eventually drift apart from their siblings as they grow older, I must pronounce that my brother and I never ever will! Both of us do not know what the future holds for and where we will be yet we know, we will always be there for each other, in support emotionally, psychologically and physically!
Happy Birthday, my Dearest Brother! See the below for you!
Ordinary and pragmatic as you may seem to othersYour success is not measured by the amount of money you earn, the size of the house that you live in or the brand of the car that you drive. Hitherto, it may seem I am ahead of life's race but at least to me, you are always ahead of me.! The morals, the judgments, the values are etched in my mind wherever I may be now or in the future. Give yourself more worth and credits for the impact made to others and never surrender to life or its struggles! :)
Yet deep beneath holds values and principals that bothers
Lacking the determination and intrepidness to dream and pursue
You make it seem like your life is due
If euphoria from being extraordinary holds no more
If contentment is what you are out for
Challenge the lionhearted innerself of yours
Before you judge your life and loss
Succumb is the word for you, never
Be the crusade against your fears forever
Let the past dissipate into nothingness
For the future beholds your true happiness
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
Nocturnal
I am becoming more Nocturnal than ever recently.
This is detrimental to my well-being. But perhaps my jet-lag is still lingering. Considering the fact that my study hours while I was in Europe are my sleeping hours in Singapore. :( Oh, that's not an excuse though since I never really studied in Europe too! I have been sleeping at 5-6 am every day then having to wake up at 11-12 pm. My mom feels for me. She thinks that I am studying hard?! Oh I feel guilty about it. Half of the time, I am on facebook playing pet society! Just can't FOCUS!! Strike me!!! Lol!
Ah, 4 more papers, 6 more days! Was extremely satisfied when I took my financial economics textbook and placed them in a place that I will never visit for the next 2 months!!!! It's tiring mugging for exams but every time you complete a module, it gives you a sense of indescribable fulfillment after the exam!
This is detrimental to my well-being. But perhaps my jet-lag is still lingering. Considering the fact that my study hours while I was in Europe are my sleeping hours in Singapore. :( Oh, that's not an excuse though since I never really studied in Europe too! I have been sleeping at 5-6 am every day then having to wake up at 11-12 pm. My mom feels for me. She thinks that I am studying hard?! Oh I feel guilty about it. Half of the time, I am on facebook playing pet society! Just can't FOCUS!! Strike me!!! Lol!
Ah, 4 more papers, 6 more days! Was extremely satisfied when I took my financial economics textbook and placed them in a place that I will never visit for the next 2 months!!!! It's tiring mugging for exams but every time you complete a module, it gives you a sense of indescribable fulfillment after the exam!
Tuesday, 25 November 2008
Sunday, 23 November 2008
梦想的心
每当我望着电视荧光屏
一个个抱着梦想的人
努力勇敢追逐他的梦
波涛汹涌的挫败感总是涌上心头
那年对自己承诺过的梦
如今已不在咫尺
随着时间的流失
我是否已经适应了周遭
我选择对现实投降
宁愿自己不曾梦过
我选择对环境屈服
戴上保护自我的装
只有真正付出的人
值得拥有梦的权力
我看着堆积如山的书本
知识积少成多的成果
很庆幸流露出的感动
我应该调整自己的心态
那对歌唱的热忱是无可取代的
我这短暂的快乐
不是我要想要的
时光机是否能找回掉了的梦想
＊＊说过音乐是永垂不朽的
却默默笑着对它挥挥手
难道我已彻底忘得干净＊＊
我即将脱下保护色
以新的我面对恐惧
让梦想不再是幻想
自由带我展翅高飞
让幸福不再是谎言
彼此依靠等待发光
Meaningful Lyrics?
Friday, 21 November 2008
many many years ago..
Companied my little nieces to school to pick up their PSLE results yesterday.
It's a weird feeling.
Perhaps weird is not the right word.
It feels more like "déjà vu" lol!
The uncertainty, anxiety that occupied their faces
I guess I experienced that a decade ago.
Everyone gathering at the school hall
Anxiously waiting for the principal to announce the top pupil
Saying your appreciation for your teachers and the school
Getting back to your classroom.
Waiting for your name to be called to get your result slips.
Of course not forgetting, asking your friends for their results.
Now: No one does that anymore!
They keep their slips close to their heart.
Guess I was too naive back then
No aspirations, no ambitions
Never learnt that intelligence only contributes to 30% of your achievements
When I saw my results, disappointment embraced me.
Yesterday, I witness that in my little nieces too.
The feeling of seeing all your friends shining out of hardwork and effort
You only have yourself to blame I guess.
Fortunately I made up for it in Sec Sch.
But I never had the opportunity to attend the Speech & Awards presentation.
Vividly remember it.
I had a test in Poly.
So I became determined to never let that disappointment come near me again.
So far so good, I am keeping up with the pace.
But sometimes I wonder.
How long would that last before I bid Satisfaction goodbye again?
Whatever you dream of,
Whatever you desire.
Never let them go unless before you ever try :))
It's a weird feeling.
Perhaps weird is not the right word.
It feels more like "déjà vu" lol!
The uncertainty, anxiety that occupied their faces
I guess I experienced that a decade ago.
Everyone gathering at the school hall
Anxiously waiting for the principal to announce the top pupil
Saying your appreciation for your teachers and the school
Getting back to your classroom.
Waiting for your name to be called to get your result slips.
Of course not forgetting, asking your friends for their results.
Now: No one does that anymore!
They keep their slips close to their heart.
Guess I was too naive back then
No aspirations, no ambitions
Never learnt that intelligence only contributes to 30% of your achievements
When I saw my results, disappointment embraced me.
Yesterday, I witness that in my little nieces too.
The feeling of seeing all your friends shining out of hardwork and effort
You only have yourself to blame I guess.
Fortunately I made up for it in Sec Sch.
But I never had the opportunity to attend the Speech & Awards presentation.
Vividly remember it.
I had a test in Poly.
So I became determined to never let that disappointment come near me again.
So far so good, I am keeping up with the pace.
But sometimes I wonder.
How long would that last before I bid Satisfaction goodbye again?
Whatever you dream of,
Whatever you desire.
Never let them go unless before you ever try :))
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
What does it hold?
I was catching up on the taiwan variety show, Kang Xi Lai Le the past two days. Seriously, it made me pondered. What does it hold to become someone famous? You worry about being extremely famous because reporters will be hounding after you every single day. You fear that you are an artiste but when you are on the streets, not many people actually identify you and give you some recognition. Or you are eager for people to give you some attention.
Suddenly, I realise it takes a lot of courage to be become an artiste. You have a short-lived career and you lose your privacy. Perhaps when you are young, you desire and dream of fame but what happens when you become older, you mature and you feel like settling down? You are deprived of the opportunity or you lose your youth to your dreams. :(
However, being a singer has always been my dream isn't it? It weighs a lot for me to be able to stand on a stage, be given a microphone to express my thoughts through music. I may not be equipped with a good vocal that will be able to conquer everyone's hearts and win thunders of applause but I hope my music can share someone's thoughts out there, give them the motivation and encouragement that is lacking in life given the bleak situation that is facing everyone nowadays. But I know I will never have the chance.
It looks like I've tons of dreams and it is near to impossible that I live through every single one. Occasionally, I just like to talk about them and fantasize. That will make me figure out life's meaning and purpose and motivate me further. As you age and live through them, every moment that you spent living your dream is an unforgettable moment in life. At least till now, I vividly remember every moment I spent in Manchester's Theatre of Dreams, I retain images of Europe, especially Stockholm and Paris, in my mind.
I will never have the chance to fulfil my ambition of being a singer because I guess I lack the courage to pursue that dream that encompasses too much uncertainty.
Suddenly, I realise it takes a lot of courage to be become an artiste. You have a short-lived career and you lose your privacy. Perhaps when you are young, you desire and dream of fame but what happens when you become older, you mature and you feel like settling down? You are deprived of the opportunity or you lose your youth to your dreams. :(
However, being a singer has always been my dream isn't it? It weighs a lot for me to be able to stand on a stage, be given a microphone to express my thoughts through music. I may not be equipped with a good vocal that will be able to conquer everyone's hearts and win thunders of applause but I hope my music can share someone's thoughts out there, give them the motivation and encouragement that is lacking in life given the bleak situation that is facing everyone nowadays. But I know I will never have the chance.
It looks like I've tons of dreams and it is near to impossible that I live through every single one. Occasionally, I just like to talk about them and fantasize. That will make me figure out life's meaning and purpose and motivate me further. As you age and live through them, every moment that you spent living your dream is an unforgettable moment in life. At least till now, I vividly remember every moment I spent in Manchester's Theatre of Dreams, I retain images of Europe, especially Stockholm and Paris, in my mind.
I will never have the chance to fulfil my ambition of being a singer because I guess I lack the courage to pursue that dream that encompasses too much uncertainty.
71:"I just wanna SING..."
Monday, 17 November 2008
White Tiger Incident
Oh I love White Tigers! Alright, that seems to have nothing to do about the incident that I want to talk about. Apparently, this has been the top discussion topic between my family members and I recently. I have been constantly following the news and trying to get the video footage of the incident. I am not being evil but I am honestly curious about how it happened.
I feel for the white tigers. They are so innocent. Someone actually made a comment like this and I can't agree less with him:
"If I intrude into your house and start provoking you, and out of fear and feeling threatened, you retaliate, should your neighbour that happened to be there gun you down or me?"
The man intentionally intruded the white tigers' physical space and provoked them. They reacted out of their natural instinct so it wasn't really their fault.! Having been domesticated for the past 8 years, they have been isolated from fresh meat and most probably their predatory instinct have become rusty. Yet, now someone has once again triggered their natural instinct to prey by intentionally provoking them. Further, unnecessary attacks like tourists throwing umbrellas across and sticks, their helpless screams and shrieks must have traumatised the poor white tigers.
Looking at this incident, it brought me images of the touching story of a lion and his owners. Christian, the lion, was domesticated when he was a young cub. Subsequently, he grew too big and had to be released back into the wild to survive on his own. A year later after leaving him, his owners decided to go to Africa to pay him a visit. Though experts suggest that they would have been forgotten by Christian, the lovely lion proved those experts wrong. He gave them big hugs and was so agitated to see them!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U
We are all animals, ain't we? The difference between the animals and us is probably we express our love, care and concern, needs and wants through speech and communication in words. The animals communicate using body language, touch, and in their own language. It's just like you and me, being Chinese, are unable to understand others who speak Spanish, French or Portuguese. However, if we were to learn the language, we would then be able to break down communication barriers. Deep inside me, I always feel that animals have feelings. Despite being big cats, being ferocious animals, lions and tigers feel for the owners who take care of them since young. But if they were to face a stranger, they would turn nasty. Like you and me, we are reserved when we meet strangers. In fact, we would feel threatened when someone just comes forward and starts to insult you or provoke you. We turn nasty too but perhaps in a more civilised way.
Maybe I should learn the animal language so that one day, I could experience the dream of being in the wild with those big cats since they are my favourite animals since young. Lol! But that's provided that I would not be consumed by them otherwise I'd not be able to live out my dream. After all, I am talking about a DREAM.... :))
I feel for the white tigers. They are so innocent. Someone actually made a comment like this and I can't agree less with him:
"If I intrude into your house and start provoking you, and out of fear and feeling threatened, you retaliate, should your neighbour that happened to be there gun you down or me?"
The man intentionally intruded the white tigers' physical space and provoked them. They reacted out of their natural instinct so it wasn't really their fault.! Having been domesticated for the past 8 years, they have been isolated from fresh meat and most probably their predatory instinct have become rusty. Yet, now someone has once again triggered their natural instinct to prey by intentionally provoking them. Further, unnecessary attacks like tourists throwing umbrellas across and sticks, their helpless screams and shrieks must have traumatised the poor white tigers.
Looking at this incident, it brought me images of the touching story of a lion and his owners. Christian, the lion, was domesticated when he was a young cub. Subsequently, he grew too big and had to be released back into the wild to survive on his own. A year later after leaving him, his owners decided to go to Africa to pay him a visit. Though experts suggest that they would have been forgotten by Christian, the lovely lion proved those experts wrong. He gave them big hugs and was so agitated to see them!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U
We are all animals, ain't we? The difference between the animals and us is probably we express our love, care and concern, needs and wants through speech and communication in words. The animals communicate using body language, touch, and in their own language. It's just like you and me, being Chinese, are unable to understand others who speak Spanish, French or Portuguese. However, if we were to learn the language, we would then be able to break down communication barriers. Deep inside me, I always feel that animals have feelings. Despite being big cats, being ferocious animals, lions and tigers feel for the owners who take care of them since young. But if they were to face a stranger, they would turn nasty. Like you and me, we are reserved when we meet strangers. In fact, we would feel threatened when someone just comes forward and starts to insult you or provoke you. We turn nasty too but perhaps in a more civilised way.
Maybe I should learn the animal language so that one day, I could experience the dream of being in the wild with those big cats since they are my favourite animals since young. Lol! But that's provided that I would not be consumed by them otherwise I'd not be able to live out my dream. After all, I am talking about a DREAM.... :))