Two weeks on, I have new thoughts to share. I went back to the office the day before my birthday to pick up my bag and belongings from the office just in case I would like to return home anytime soon. Life seems pretty normal on the streets, albeit office was really quiet and Broadgate Circle was almost like a ghost town, like on weekends. I really miss the bustling Broadgate Circle filled with beer-goers in the evenings and on Friday nights, miss the typing in the office, miss going for lunches and coffee breaks with V. When can we return to normal?
I am officially a year older again as well. This birthday was relatively quiet, given C. I did not travel anywhere but stayed in my room the entire day. I chatted with my family, reconnected with some old friends - badminton ones, teenage years one, BenC, AW, etc. I really MISS EVERYONE. I miss BADMINTON so so so much. It has been 9 months since I last hit a shuttle and these days, I can only swing my racquet in my room and hit the shuttle on my own. C, you took away so much in our lives. When I watched old badminton videos, I cannot tell you how much I miss my badminton mates in Dubai, people whom I meet week in week out, loads of jokes on the court, the camaraderie we had in going through one tournament after another. Badminton was really my sole social support back in Dubai outside of work. I really wish to go back to playing.
On another note, I was looking to buy a flat recently and realise the cost of one. It is so expensive and I suddenly have the thought to just return to UAE / Dubai and live for another 2-3 years so that I can save up more. The salary that I earn in the UK is really S H I T. Life can be such a pain at times. You have to think and save up for the future while living in the moment. I keep thinking that I have saved enough but truth is, it is never quite enough. In two weeks' time, I will be writing my final blog post for the year. 2020, you have been extraordinary and I honestly have a love-hate relationship with this year.
I have always been hesitant about returning to Singapore. Having had my own living space for the last 5 years, I really cannot return to squeezing in a tiny room with my sister. I enjoy living overseas and the price I pay is the high taxes here in the UK. Now, I am thinking about returning to Singapore. A thought struck me recently that my grandma is getting really old and her time on Earth might be really limited. I would like to be able to spend more time with her while I still can, play mahjong with her, visit her, eat her cooking and chat with her. While my nieces are still young, they still have a whole lifetime ahead of them while the sun is setting for my grandma. I will try to look for a job in Singapore more actively.
