My best buds in NUS - Rachel & Pauline (2nd, 3rd from left)
Global Economic Dimensions Class- Peiyun. Me. Rachel
Friends since year 1! :))
Will post more pictures when they upload it onto facebook!
While I was on the bus today, I thought about the event yesterday. When we first started out in NUS, most of them who graduated yesterday were adamant on doing Honors while me, who had not have the opportunity to put on the gown was so bent on leaving after 2.5 years. Now, 3 years later, our roles were completely switched. Here I was, stuck in NUS yet for another semester having to do Honors out of reluctance while they wholeheartedly graduated and were moving on to another new phrase in life! What an irony.
In school, you are expected to put on your best and strive for the best results (at least for me), so while people might be aiming for passes, there I was, expected to score A's and A+'s for the hand that feeds me, for my parents, and for myself. :) Having landed myself in such a situation i.e. getting a scholarship, I know my whole life will be dedicated to always striving to be the best because when I go out to work some day, people will have tons of expectations of me. So while others can afford to slack, I can't. I have to make sure I am worthy of my status. That's my life.!
Am I sad? Or should I be happy? I feel for myself because I am fully aware that I entered this rat race sooner than others and this torrential battle will be haunting me for the rest of my life and no matter how fatigue I feel, I have to endure for my dreams and aspirations and what I aim to achieve in life. However, I am glad and proud of whatever I have owned and achieved so far. It is because of what I own now and went through that made me realise my dreams of visiting Old Trafford, Paris, Eiffel, the world and leave my footprints. Further, having consistently being put under pressure to perform and having to meet others' expectations, no doubt it's trying, but it has strengthened me and developed me into a more complete individual with a higher threshold for pressure than many others. I've come to terms with my life, with the expectations of me but I see it as an personal investment which I have secured the dividends, so no complaints.! :) I love my life the way it is and will continue to love it more! :)
Global Economic Dimensions Class- Peiyun. Me. Rachel
Friends since year 1! :))
Will post more pictures when they upload it onto facebook!
While I was on the bus today, I thought about the event yesterday. When we first started out in NUS, most of them who graduated yesterday were adamant on doing Honors while me, who had not have the opportunity to put on the gown was so bent on leaving after 2.5 years. Now, 3 years later, our roles were completely switched. Here I was, stuck in NUS yet for another semester having to do Honors out of reluctance while they wholeheartedly graduated and were moving on to another new phrase in life! What an irony.
In school, you are expected to put on your best and strive for the best results (at least for me), so while people might be aiming for passes, there I was, expected to score A's and A+'s for the hand that feeds me, for my parents, and for myself. :) Having landed myself in such a situation i.e. getting a scholarship, I know my whole life will be dedicated to always striving to be the best because when I go out to work some day, people will have tons of expectations of me. So while others can afford to slack, I can't. I have to make sure I am worthy of my status. That's my life.!
Am I sad? Or should I be happy? I feel for myself because I am fully aware that I entered this rat race sooner than others and this torrential battle will be haunting me for the rest of my life and no matter how fatigue I feel, I have to endure for my dreams and aspirations and what I aim to achieve in life. However, I am glad and proud of whatever I have owned and achieved so far. It is because of what I own now and went through that made me realise my dreams of visiting Old Trafford, Paris, Eiffel, the world and leave my footprints. Further, having consistently being put under pressure to perform and having to meet others' expectations, no doubt it's trying, but it has strengthened me and developed me into a more complete individual with a higher threshold for pressure than many others. I've come to terms with my life, with the expectations of me but I see it as an personal investment which I have secured the dividends, so no complaints.! :) I love my life the way it is and will continue to love it more! :)
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