The world today is lacking a bit of love and hope?
People around me are feeling grey? People around me are seeing blues?
Argghh! Sometimes I get tired of all the hassles of life, expectations, requirements etc.
Every now and then, feelings like these bother me..
I don't know why they arise and how they arose?
Too much work? Too little leisure? Insufficient space?
It's a passing phase of life..
We'll all overcome it..
I never get lost with love in sight..
I find my foothold with hope in me..
In unison, we'll be right there embracing our dreams :)
Thursday, 23 October 2008
Tuesday, 14 October 2008
Thoughts
Life in Singapore is mundane.
Was just randomly talking to friends and family members about my life in Stockholm.
I behave more like a human in Stockholm.
In Singapore, I am no more than a robot.
I sleep 4-5 hours each day.
At times, 2 hours is what I get like last night.
Beer.Alcohol.KTV.Tennis.Badminton.
I feel life is much more fulfilling after I am back.
School's breathing down my neck with the tons of assignments due.
However, I am glad I am left with the last final report.
I've always ponder about this question.
I realise that as people get older, they find it more difficult to find true friends?
Why? Because of the level of commitment in their life.
There are some people out there who are really sincere in making friends with me.
However, eventually we never become true friends.
Some people question my sincerity in being friends with them. WHY?
I am committed when I say it. I assure.
Like what MH told me last week-Crispy is the word.
I did try to diversify my time.
However, it takes two hands to clap.
How to convince someone that you are sincere in being friends with him or her?
Actions?
Thoughts?
I am an expressive person.
Actions speak louder than words.
I will prove it some day.
Just for YOU.
Was just randomly talking to friends and family members about my life in Stockholm.
I behave more like a human in Stockholm.
In Singapore, I am no more than a robot.
I sleep 4-5 hours each day.
At times, 2 hours is what I get like last night.
Beer.Alcohol.KTV.Tennis.Badminton.
I feel life is much more fulfilling after I am back.
School's breathing down my neck with the tons of assignments due.
However, I am glad I am left with the last final report.
I've always ponder about this question.
I realise that as people get older, they find it more difficult to find true friends?
Why? Because of the level of commitment in their life.
There are some people out there who are really sincere in making friends with me.
However, eventually we never become true friends.
Some people question my sincerity in being friends with them. WHY?
I am committed when I say it. I assure.
Like what MH told me last week-Crispy is the word.
I did try to diversify my time.
However, it takes two hands to clap.
How to convince someone that you are sincere in being friends with him or her?
Actions?
Thoughts?
I am an expressive person.
Actions speak louder than words.
I will prove it some day.
Just for YOU.
Saturday, 11 October 2008
Sleep
Sleep deprived for the past 3 days.
Books, Tests, Life, Concerns?
Finally a good night's sleep... !
Books, Tests, Life, Concerns?
Finally a good night's sleep... !
Monday, 6 October 2008
The story of being-in-existence
There are certain people that you want to treasure all your life.
<--> Dedicated to.... - she hears..<-->
As we stroll down the roads of the country at night,
Whining and mincing every little bit of life trying to make it right.
Yet at the end of day, we just left things to God to decide.
The company of someone to share your life,
You constantly feel YOU will be able to thrive,
And never have to hear yourself cry.
As we passed by the landscapes that envisioned our dreams,
We held in high hopes of witnessing how we realise them by our own means.
Yet all was torn apart by just one burst of steam.
The countless of complains that dominated our conversations,
The dependence on one to be sensitive to all emotions.
Why would anyone be able to handle such situations?
With the passage of time things turned for the worst,
The minute happiness could no longer quench our thirst.
So who on earth would give up first?
Those were the days that YOU and I missed Dearly,
Yet Neither would ever be able to piece things back neatly,
Cause something that's bro ken will never work perfectly.
<--> Dedicated to.... - she hears..<-->
As we stroll down the roads of the country at night,
Whining and mincing every little bit of life trying to make it right.
Yet at the end of day, we just left things to God to decide.
The company of someone to share your life,
You constantly feel YOU will be able to thrive,
And never have to hear yourself cry.
As we passed by the landscapes that envisioned our dreams,
We held in high hopes of witnessing how we realise them by our own means.
Yet all was torn apart by just one burst of steam.
The countless of complains that dominated our conversations,
The dependence on one to be sensitive to all emotions.
Why would anyone be able to handle such situations?
With the passage of time things turned for the worst,
The minute happiness could no longer quench our thirst.
So who on earth would give up first?
Those were the days that YOU and I missed Dearly,
Yet Neither would ever be able to piece things back neatly,
Cause something that's bro ken will never work perfectly.
I just randomly saw this piece of words in a blog and I thought it was really nice. I guess this person must be missing someone in his or her life a lot a lot. Lots of thoughts came to my mind.
-> Could it be life and death that made him or her wrote something like that?
-> Or was it the loss of a relationship?
-> Yet it could also be the separation between two best friends.
-> Was it the distance that started to lengthen between family members?
I believe everyone has had someone whom he or she wants to treasure all his or her life, so do I. No matter how bad things between two become, no matter how circumstances change their relationship, regardless of the conflicts that arose, you always need one party who is constantly trying to maintain and salvage what's been broken or hurt. I must say it is really a good attempt. Yet I can't deny the fatigue that comes with one party being on the heavier side of any kind of relationship. Perhaps at times, learning to let go generates a higher level of happiness.
Further, there are certain values that all of us want to uphold or the so-called morals and principles. Yeah, it might be nice to have them so it keeps you in check all the time. However, at the end of the day, sometimes it is these morals and principles that stagnates you.
In the past, I used to think that letting go is a stupid option. Why let go if you really wanted something? But perhaps my perspectives have changed. It takes more courage to let go and say no than to hold on to something that has already flown away from your hands not once, but maybe twice or even thrice. Something's that forced is never better. It only makes both parties more conscious of what they are holding in their hands.
I totally concur with the last sentence, "Cause something that's broken will never work perfectly".
But sometimes when I look back in life and count the number of people that have walked into and out of my life, I questioned myself. Did I let go too easily? Would my life have been much different if I spent more time with him or her? Would his or her life have taken a different path if we had built up a different form of communication?
Memories of some people stay with me. For Life. Like what someone told me before, all of us keep those feelings that have hurt us in a small corner of our heart subconsciously. As the clock ticks, the pain in us diminishes. When long enough has passed, our wounds heal and we longer hurt. Yet those memories never leave us. Every now and then, when time permits, we take these memories out. The feeling or hurt and hatred no longer lingers yet we just can't forget them. That's why everyone says "Forgive and Forget". Forgiveness has to come first because it is must easier, and no one ever really forgets.
If at this moment, you are at one of the crossroads in your life, don't make things more difficult than necessary. Be brave just this once, make a change and move on with life. Cause you never know what beautiful landscapes lie ahead.
71:"I view the a glass that is half-filled with water as half-full rather than half-empty."
Wednesday, 1 October 2008
What is the world becoming to ?
Yet another piece of bad news when I bought the Straits Times today. It's been almost 3 months since I am back and everyday when I read the news, it's always more turmoil!
1. The US Bailout plan failed to go through. Imagine the implications that it will have globally. Millions of people will be affected. Sometimes, I wonder if Singaporeans are just passive or are they genuinely ignorant? People around me don't seem to be the least bit concerned about the failure of the US credit market. Maybe I misunderstood them. They are avoiding the topic because they are too traumatised? Come on, despite a diversified economy, Singapore is pretty reliant on the US economy for its survival. Hundreds of our citizens fill up positions at the US-based investment banks in Singapore. Millions of our cash deposited with the bank goes into investments in the US Debt and Equity Market. But are Singaporeans informed about all these things? Are they concerned about Singapore's prospects and future? Yes, Singapore has huge reserves backing the economy and the MAS has repeatedly provided assurance for Singapore's banking and finance industry. But think back to those times in the 1997 Asian financial crisis. Perhaps you weren't too affected by it that's why it didn't struck you this time round.
Thousands of people lost their jobs, investments pulled out, inflation was pervasive etc. If you think you are not going to start to be concerned about what's happening around us, slap yourself and wake yourself up and start to pay more attention. Be informed, don't be just another ignorant Singaporean who just knows how to eat, drink, work, sleep and wait for the day God receives you. Don't just idle and think that the government is going to solve any crisis for us. Yes, we are in good hands right now but there must be something that we all can do to play a part in driving Singapore's economy. You have enjoyed the fruits of labour laid by our ancestors. It's also our responsibility to ensure our kids and grandchildren have the same luxury as us. :)
2. Tainted-milk scandal in China. China's largest importer-US. The US has been running a trade-deficit with the Chinese for decades. With the toy scandal last year followed by the tainted milk products this year, China's economy is expected to suffer a setback for sure. Millions of food consumers worldwide are recalling products that are suspected to have used milk powder produced by the China San-Lu company. Despite having launched the space shuttle into space just last week, returning this week, your military and technology supremacy does not translate necessarily into global recognition. All eyes are on how this scandalous tainted-milk product drama is going to end? Will domestic and international consumers trust China's product like before?
3. Numerous cases of murders and suicides. Recently the news and newspapers have been making headlines of murders and suicides. From the Yishun's murder case to the recently homicide of the 15-year old China girl by her step-father and recently the suicide case at Bukit Batok. Just what's happening to the world? Yes, Singapore used to be largely-immigrant based in our history. It was the Chinese and Indian immigrants which contributed largely to Singapore's growth. But will Singaporeans be able to accept these immigrants today like they used to a century ago? Without technology and the temptations of greed, I am sure my answer will be a definite YES. After all, we are all descendants of China too. But circumstances have changed today.
A century ago, men and women who came from China purely wanted to lift themselves out of poverty and to escape the war with Japan. Men left in search of a better life while women left to avoid the humiliation by the Japanese. After they arrived in Singapore, their main priority was to work. Nowadays, those China women that came with their kids are simply atrocious! Getting into scandals with local Singaporean guys, creating social problems of all kinds.. Just take a look at the past 4-5 years. How many cases of murders, cheat, suicides involved these Chinese ladies. Why are we wasting our precious human talents and resources from the Ministry of Home Affairs to deal with all the problems that these non-locals have created? I can rationalise people's negative connotations and attitudes towards these foreign migrants. We all started with a neutral mindset and accepted them. But you can't help deny that it's their own behaviour, actions and attitudes that have altered our perceptions of them. It takes two hands to clap.
Well, of course these are just my personal comments and have no intention of directing any opinion against or towards anyone. Tomorrow will be BETTER! :)
1. The US Bailout plan failed to go through. Imagine the implications that it will have globally. Millions of people will be affected. Sometimes, I wonder if Singaporeans are just passive or are they genuinely ignorant? People around me don't seem to be the least bit concerned about the failure of the US credit market. Maybe I misunderstood them. They are avoiding the topic because they are too traumatised? Come on, despite a diversified economy, Singapore is pretty reliant on the US economy for its survival. Hundreds of our citizens fill up positions at the US-based investment banks in Singapore. Millions of our cash deposited with the bank goes into investments in the US Debt and Equity Market. But are Singaporeans informed about all these things? Are they concerned about Singapore's prospects and future? Yes, Singapore has huge reserves backing the economy and the MAS has repeatedly provided assurance for Singapore's banking and finance industry. But think back to those times in the 1997 Asian financial crisis. Perhaps you weren't too affected by it that's why it didn't struck you this time round.
Thousands of people lost their jobs, investments pulled out, inflation was pervasive etc. If you think you are not going to start to be concerned about what's happening around us, slap yourself and wake yourself up and start to pay more attention. Be informed, don't be just another ignorant Singaporean who just knows how to eat, drink, work, sleep and wait for the day God receives you. Don't just idle and think that the government is going to solve any crisis for us. Yes, we are in good hands right now but there must be something that we all can do to play a part in driving Singapore's economy. You have enjoyed the fruits of labour laid by our ancestors. It's also our responsibility to ensure our kids and grandchildren have the same luxury as us. :)
2. Tainted-milk scandal in China. China's largest importer-US. The US has been running a trade-deficit with the Chinese for decades. With the toy scandal last year followed by the tainted milk products this year, China's economy is expected to suffer a setback for sure. Millions of food consumers worldwide are recalling products that are suspected to have used milk powder produced by the China San-Lu company. Despite having launched the space shuttle into space just last week, returning this week, your military and technology supremacy does not translate necessarily into global recognition. All eyes are on how this scandalous tainted-milk product drama is going to end? Will domestic and international consumers trust China's product like before?
3. Numerous cases of murders and suicides. Recently the news and newspapers have been making headlines of murders and suicides. From the Yishun's murder case to the recently homicide of the 15-year old China girl by her step-father and recently the suicide case at Bukit Batok. Just what's happening to the world? Yes, Singapore used to be largely-immigrant based in our history. It was the Chinese and Indian immigrants which contributed largely to Singapore's growth. But will Singaporeans be able to accept these immigrants today like they used to a century ago? Without technology and the temptations of greed, I am sure my answer will be a definite YES. After all, we are all descendants of China too. But circumstances have changed today.
A century ago, men and women who came from China purely wanted to lift themselves out of poverty and to escape the war with Japan. Men left in search of a better life while women left to avoid the humiliation by the Japanese. After they arrived in Singapore, their main priority was to work. Nowadays, those China women that came with their kids are simply atrocious! Getting into scandals with local Singaporean guys, creating social problems of all kinds.. Just take a look at the past 4-5 years. How many cases of murders, cheat, suicides involved these Chinese ladies. Why are we wasting our precious human talents and resources from the Ministry of Home Affairs to deal with all the problems that these non-locals have created? I can rationalise people's negative connotations and attitudes towards these foreign migrants. We all started with a neutral mindset and accepted them. But you can't help deny that it's their own behaviour, actions and attitudes that have altered our perceptions of them. It takes two hands to clap.
Well, of course these are just my personal comments and have no intention of directing any opinion against or towards anyone. Tomorrow will be BETTER! :)
Monday, 29 September 2008
Just a random thought
I was having a pretty restless journey on 198 SBS Bus this afternoon after my mid-term test in school. It was just like any other ordinary ride home on a typical school date. But a brief 3 minutes of playback on the TV Mobile left tears welling up in my eyes. For a moment, I felt proud that I was a Singaporean!
There she was, Ms Yip Pin Xiu, battling against her physical handicap fighting for a GOLD medal for Singapore in the Paralympics. The moment when she was wheeled up the winning platform and presented with the medal, in my opinion, should be one that will be etched in her memory. The National Anthem, which I have been singing every single day for my 12 years of elementary and secondary education, was ALAS played! Wasn't this what the government, the public, the whole nation were waiting for? However, from my observation of the passengers on the bus, none of them seemed interested in what was being shown on the TV.
I've always felt that being able to represent your nation in any form of competition, exchange, seminars etc is something that makes you take a lot of pride in it. It doesn't matter if you emerge as a champion, though being one amplifies the honour.
I am glad that some day in the near future, I too will be serving the Nation and I definitely hope I will be able to continue serving the Nation for the rest of my life in fact! :)
Closing Note: I wish the girl best of luck in her future. :)
When you have a problem and you keep dwelling on it, you do not solve the problem. Instead, you amplify it and make it a BIGGER problem.
There she was, Ms Yip Pin Xiu, battling against her physical handicap fighting for a GOLD medal for Singapore in the Paralympics. The moment when she was wheeled up the winning platform and presented with the medal, in my opinion, should be one that will be etched in her memory. The National Anthem, which I have been singing every single day for my 12 years of elementary and secondary education, was ALAS played! Wasn't this what the government, the public, the whole nation were waiting for? However, from my observation of the passengers on the bus, none of them seemed interested in what was being shown on the TV.
I've always felt that being able to represent your nation in any form of competition, exchange, seminars etc is something that makes you take a lot of pride in it. It doesn't matter if you emerge as a champion, though being one amplifies the honour.
I am glad that some day in the near future, I too will be serving the Nation and I definitely hope I will be able to continue serving the Nation for the rest of my life in fact! :)
Closing Note: I wish the girl best of luck in her future. :)
When you have a problem and you keep dwelling on it, you do not solve the problem. Instead, you amplify it and make it a BIGGER problem.
Friday, 26 September 2008
NO TITLE
Yeah!I am back to playing tennis! It feels extremely good!!!
Oh well, Chris can't go on the WAT USA. I can't describe my disappointment. After all, we had agreed on going together. I feel bad not keeping my promise. However, I have my concerns too. I am graduating in Dec next year while he graduates in July the year after me. Considering the fact that I will be in NIE by then and I won't have anymore breaks, I have no choice but to go the next coming summer. It's such a struggle. Nevertheless, I don't want to give up this opportunity too!
71:"I am so sorry, Chris!"
Mid-terms are round the corner. I don't feel the urgency to mug yet. What's wrong?! Too used to the laid-back Swedish lifestyle. haha.. I guess Hitting MY BOOKS hard is next on my agenda. In progress of adapting back to the Singapore pace!
Oh well, Chris can't go on the WAT USA. I can't describe my disappointment. After all, we had agreed on going together. I feel bad not keeping my promise. However, I have my concerns too. I am graduating in Dec next year while he graduates in July the year after me. Considering the fact that I will be in NIE by then and I won't have anymore breaks, I have no choice but to go the next coming summer. It's such a struggle. Nevertheless, I don't want to give up this opportunity too!
71:"I am so sorry, Chris!"
Mid-terms are round the corner. I don't feel the urgency to mug yet. What's wrong?! Too used to the laid-back Swedish lifestyle. haha.. I guess Hitting MY BOOKS hard is next on my agenda. In progress of adapting back to the Singapore pace!
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
Air of Freedom
As I cycled along the road and streets in the Jurong West Neighbourhood, I feel an air of freedom surrounding me once again. Cycling really brings me happiness. It doesn't matter if I am slower than the vehicles that whiz past me every minute. I was deprived of this freedom for almost 3 weeks. Now it feels good to own it once again.
I was a bit bored and lethargic after working on my lab report the whole afternoon. Thus, I decided to re-read some of the past entries in my blog. I started from the January ones of course! Honestly, I marvel at how my command of English had improved over these 8 months!! If you doubt my words, all you have to do now is to put your hand on your mouse and move it to the right scroll bar and scroll down to the archives and click on the January tab. Read the entry right at the bottom and move upwards. It is unnecessary to read all of the January entries. You probably just have to read the first few ones. Subsequently, you read the later ones in July or August or even September. The words that I used, the way I structure my sentences, my grammar etc have all changed!!
Further, writing essays has always been a cause of concern for me when I first entered NUS. I don't seem to be able to relay my ideas well. However, if I were to be given an essay to write on at this moment, I doubt I will panic. Everything just flows to me so naturally. Instead, writing lab reports suck! I feel so screwed because I have completely no idea what I should include and not. I used to excel better in reporting facts but I think the tides have changed now. I prefer argumentative essays somehow. :)
I was a bit bored and lethargic after working on my lab report the whole afternoon. Thus, I decided to re-read some of the past entries in my blog. I started from the January ones of course! Honestly, I marvel at how my command of English had improved over these 8 months!! If you doubt my words, all you have to do now is to put your hand on your mouse and move it to the right scroll bar and scroll down to the archives and click on the January tab. Read the entry right at the bottom and move upwards. It is unnecessary to read all of the January entries. You probably just have to read the first few ones. Subsequently, you read the later ones in July or August or even September. The words that I used, the way I structure my sentences, my grammar etc have all changed!!
Further, writing essays has always been a cause of concern for me when I first entered NUS. I don't seem to be able to relay my ideas well. However, if I were to be given an essay to write on at this moment, I doubt I will panic. Everything just flows to me so naturally. Instead, writing lab reports suck! I feel so screwed because I have completely no idea what I should include and not. I used to excel better in reporting facts but I think the tides have changed now. I prefer argumentative essays somehow. :)