www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~u0601691/gek1511
My group mate and I's amazing website...
My group mate and I's amazing website...
Friday, 31 July 2009
A special semester in exchange for a special friend...
Special Semester has finally ended and I would say it ended with a bang, despite me being squeezed dried towards the last two weeks with the term paper, tutorial presentation and group project and website to do...
Honestly, I wasn't that into Special Sem initially and was so bent on leaving for Canada for summer exchange. However, the H1n1 virus turned things around and I even have to give up my US trip for a virus now widespread like COMMON FLU.. :(
Though we didn't spend a lot of time together since both of us always skipped lectures and only attended tutorials, I am glad we went for Special Semester together. :) A year and a half ago, when both of us left darling Singapore to beloved Stockholm, the bond between us was unusually and exceptionally tightly-wounded, like friends who have known each other for decades. Yet, when you spent too much time together despite knowing each other for only weeks or months, conflicts arise, friction results and I think we kind of gave up trying to maintain the friendship towards the end of the exchange. Misunderstandings arose, communication was impeded etc.
Now, a year after our exchange and with our lives back to what it was before the exchange, the memories still linger in us I guess. The unanticipated flings, crushes and parties, the people and friends etc....
I was taught an important lesson in these six weeks, to reflect on my life, to think of what I've been through the last 3 years in NUS and how I've lost myself along the way. Hardly could I recall myself being truthful to the people whom I met in NUS. Not being truthful does not equate to telling lies but it definitely involves certain white lies, my need for privacy, my need to survive, my need to meet the expectations etc. I am not trying excuse myself for the lies spoken, for the damage caused, for the responsibility of letting happiness elude me...
I realise that it was me who had let my emotions control my logic, let jealousy won me over, allow anger to triumph and the devil to leech on me. After all, having attracting the supposed attention for several years, it was hard having to grapple with the sudden loss. But the past two days have made me realised that perhaps they ain't that pivotal. God has shown it is time that I take the back seat and let the deserving ones take the front stage.
This special semester has taken a toll on my lifestyle, on my habits, on my stress level but it has definitely won me much more. The unearthing of a fresh perspective of life, of myself and the people around me is way more precious, all thanks to a casual chat in a tutorial some day in the middle of a discussion, over a few lunches of subway and a mugging session in the library.
Thanks, KIM! You've been truly awesome as a friend.... :)
I am reminded of a best friend I once had years ago but the last time we spoke was 2 years ago?!
Honestly, I wasn't that into Special Sem initially and was so bent on leaving for Canada for summer exchange. However, the H1n1 virus turned things around and I even have to give up my US trip for a virus now widespread like COMMON FLU.. :(
Though we didn't spend a lot of time together since both of us always skipped lectures and only attended tutorials, I am glad we went for Special Semester together. :) A year and a half ago, when both of us left darling Singapore to beloved Stockholm, the bond between us was unusually and exceptionally tightly-wounded, like friends who have known each other for decades. Yet, when you spent too much time together despite knowing each other for only weeks or months, conflicts arise, friction results and I think we kind of gave up trying to maintain the friendship towards the end of the exchange. Misunderstandings arose, communication was impeded etc.
Now, a year after our exchange and with our lives back to what it was before the exchange, the memories still linger in us I guess. The unanticipated flings, crushes and parties, the people and friends etc....
I was taught an important lesson in these six weeks, to reflect on my life, to think of what I've been through the last 3 years in NUS and how I've lost myself along the way. Hardly could I recall myself being truthful to the people whom I met in NUS. Not being truthful does not equate to telling lies but it definitely involves certain white lies, my need for privacy, my need to survive, my need to meet the expectations etc. I am not trying excuse myself for the lies spoken, for the damage caused, for the responsibility of letting happiness elude me...
I realise that it was me who had let my emotions control my logic, let jealousy won me over, allow anger to triumph and the devil to leech on me. After all, having attracting the supposed attention for several years, it was hard having to grapple with the sudden loss. But the past two days have made me realised that perhaps they ain't that pivotal. God has shown it is time that I take the back seat and let the deserving ones take the front stage.
This special semester has taken a toll on my lifestyle, on my habits, on my stress level but it has definitely won me much more. The unearthing of a fresh perspective of life, of myself and the people around me is way more precious, all thanks to a casual chat in a tutorial some day in the middle of a discussion, over a few lunches of subway and a mugging session in the library.
Thanks, KIM! You've been truly awesome as a friend.... :)
I am reminded of a best friend I once had years ago but the last time we spoke was 2 years ago?!
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
Contrast
NUS and ITE Dover are just separated by a highway.
The emotional state and physical appearance of the two groups of students are a contrast as well.
I was waiting for the bus on Tues evening
Can't help but sighed.
They were all so happy, grinning, giggling among themselves
What were NUS students busy with?
Reading notes, and a glum and stressed-out look. Mental fatigue.
Why is it that there is such a big contrast between us?
Contentment and Non-competitiveness bring them happiness I believe
So are NUS students genuinely happy?
The emotional state and physical appearance of the two groups of students are a contrast as well.
I was waiting for the bus on Tues evening
Can't help but sighed.
They were all so happy, grinning, giggling among themselves
What were NUS students busy with?
Reading notes, and a glum and stressed-out look. Mental fatigue.
Why is it that there is such a big contrast between us?
Contentment and Non-competitiveness bring them happiness I believe
So are NUS students genuinely happy?
Monday, 27 July 2009
Emptied
I realise I have not been posting much these days.
Busy schedule.
Will find time to update after Friday 11am!
Wish me luck that I get at least a C for both my modules
Though I hate to see anything worst than a B+
Yet I know I don't deserve to see any A's this time
Since I hardly attend school and flung all my assessments.
Busy schedule.
Will find time to update after Friday 11am!
Wish me luck that I get at least a C for both my modules
Though I hate to see anything worst than a B+
Yet I know I don't deserve to see any A's this time
Since I hardly attend school and flung all my assessments.
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
This invited whelming response.
Ginnelle took What Is Your Future Job
Footballer
You will be a footballer.
You will earn £60,000 a week.
You will play for your dream club.
You will never get married but have a fit girlfriend.
You will have loads of kids (accidently).
You will die young because of your alchohol abuse.
*I wished* I guess it's the picture that suits me! :)
Stiff.
Your cold shoulder makes me tremble.
Your silence is abhorrent.
I stare in the middle of the night, defenseless
Only to feel my heart bleeding in convulse.
Save me from implosion. :)
Your silence is abhorrent.
I stare in the middle of the night, defenseless
Only to feel my heart bleeding in convulse.
Save me from implosion. :)
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
Commencement
Joyous occasion for all my friends who have officially graduated and I attended their commencement yesterday evening! But I am on the other extreme end of the emotional spectrum. I am so gonna miss them next semester. I won't be seeing them in school, will not be hanging out as often and for my commencement next year, I will definitely not see them in the gown together with me! :( But I feel for their happiness, to finally escaped from the clutch of NUS!
My best buds in NUS - Rachel & Pauline (2nd, 3rd from left)
Global Economic Dimensions Class- Peiyun. Me. Rachel
Friends since year 1! :))
Will post more pictures when they upload it onto facebook!
While I was on the bus today, I thought about the event yesterday. When we first started out in NUS, most of them who graduated yesterday were adamant on doing Honors while me, who had not have the opportunity to put on the gown was so bent on leaving after 2.5 years. Now, 3 years later, our roles were completely switched. Here I was, stuck in NUS yet for another semester having to do Honors out of reluctance while they wholeheartedly graduated and were moving on to another new phrase in life! What an irony.
In school, you are expected to put on your best and strive for the best results (at least for me), so while people might be aiming for passes, there I was, expected to score A's and A+'s for the hand that feeds me, for my parents, and for myself. :) Having landed myself in such a situation i.e. getting a scholarship, I know my whole life will be dedicated to always striving to be the best because when I go out to work some day, people will have tons of expectations of me. So while others can afford to slack, I can't. I have to make sure I am worthy of my status. That's my life.!
Am I sad? Or should I be happy? I feel for myself because I am fully aware that I entered this rat race sooner than others and this torrential battle will be haunting me for the rest of my life and no matter how fatigue I feel, I have to endure for my dreams and aspirations and what I aim to achieve in life. However, I am glad and proud of whatever I have owned and achieved so far. It is because of what I own now and went through that made me realise my dreams of visiting Old Trafford, Paris, Eiffel, the world and leave my footprints. Further, having consistently being put under pressure to perform and having to meet others' expectations, no doubt it's trying, but it has strengthened me and developed me into a more complete individual with a higher threshold for pressure than many others. I've come to terms with my life, with the expectations of me but I see it as an personal investment which I have secured the dividends, so no complaints.! :) I love my life the way it is and will continue to love it more! :)
Global Economic Dimensions Class- Peiyun. Me. Rachel
Friends since year 1! :))
Will post more pictures when they upload it onto facebook!
While I was on the bus today, I thought about the event yesterday. When we first started out in NUS, most of them who graduated yesterday were adamant on doing Honors while me, who had not have the opportunity to put on the gown was so bent on leaving after 2.5 years. Now, 3 years later, our roles were completely switched. Here I was, stuck in NUS yet for another semester having to do Honors out of reluctance while they wholeheartedly graduated and were moving on to another new phrase in life! What an irony.
In school, you are expected to put on your best and strive for the best results (at least for me), so while people might be aiming for passes, there I was, expected to score A's and A+'s for the hand that feeds me, for my parents, and for myself. :) Having landed myself in such a situation i.e. getting a scholarship, I know my whole life will be dedicated to always striving to be the best because when I go out to work some day, people will have tons of expectations of me. So while others can afford to slack, I can't. I have to make sure I am worthy of my status. That's my life.!
Am I sad? Or should I be happy? I feel for myself because I am fully aware that I entered this rat race sooner than others and this torrential battle will be haunting me for the rest of my life and no matter how fatigue I feel, I have to endure for my dreams and aspirations and what I aim to achieve in life. However, I am glad and proud of whatever I have owned and achieved so far. It is because of what I own now and went through that made me realise my dreams of visiting Old Trafford, Paris, Eiffel, the world and leave my footprints. Further, having consistently being put under pressure to perform and having to meet others' expectations, no doubt it's trying, but it has strengthened me and developed me into a more complete individual with a higher threshold for pressure than many others. I've come to terms with my life, with the expectations of me but I see it as an personal investment which I have secured the dividends, so no complaints.! :) I love my life the way it is and will continue to love it more! :)
Monday, 6 July 2009
From Ronaldo..
"I have to thank him for all that he taught me. He's been fundamental. I'll always have great affection for him and he will occupy a special place in my heart.
Ronaldo, who is set to travel to Manchester in the coming days to say his farewells to Ferguson in person, also thanked the United fans for their support.
He added: "It was my home. I played there six seasons and I was always well liked by the United fans.
"We won many things together. They always sang my song in the stands and I have to thank them for the affection they showed me during all the time that I played at Old Trafford. The fans of Manchester (United) are special."
Even though he will not be putting the United Shirt anymore, I'll always support him for all that he brought to the club and to my world of Football. Obrigado, Ronaldo! :)